The Magick
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January 30, 2009
Sue Yarmey Channels The Many (and Gaia)
We are here.
We have four messages tonight for this particular group.
The messages are about, we will call it your sense of self
is the first.
The second has to do with your sense of self in a place of
belonging for that is true of everyone in this room.
The third has to do with your sense of self in the world as
the whole, so that you recognize that you are connected to all things and all
things are connected to you.
The fourth, then, has to do with your sense of self and the
concept on your planet which is exceptionally limited, of the term love.
Those are the four things that are of the greatest energy
within this particular group.
We will say to you, that all of you, that each of you have a
sense of self, but none you, none of you have a sense of self in the way that
is true to self. That is because each of you is very busy concerning yourself
with the feelings of others, each of you is very busy concerning yourself with
how the other person will respond to the "who" you are in this
particular moment. We are not saying that is a bad thing. We are simply saying
that it diverts you from knowing truly who self is.
Once you are in your core, once you recognize what core is,
once you see yourself operating from that particular position, it is much
easier to understand these four steps we are speaking of and how they relate to
your own growth and development within, we will call it your spiritual side.
But it is more than spiritual that you are growing. You are growing in all
areas, in all ways, because so is your planet. You cannot do other than that
when she is shifting and changing for you are too connected to her in too many
ways. As your planet shifts and changes, so must you.
Your planet is discovering self, also. She is doing it in a
most wonderful way. She is doing it by making each and every one who lives upon
her, notice her. So for those of you who have forgotten to be grateful for what
is offered to you by living upon this lovely blue planet, those of you who have
forgotten will now have to notice for you will have no choice. There is great
talk now about global warming. There is great talk now about what is happening
with the plates.
In Sue’s head she is laughing. She is seeing the old shows,
your television shows where they would spin the plates on sticks! Those are not
the plates we speak of.
We speak of the plates that create the earthquakes around
your planet. The ring of fire is one of those places. And the plates upon your
planet are also shifting. These shifts, more than anything – even though it is
not yet understood by your scientists – are affecting the winds upon your
planet as well. Eventually your scientists will understand how these are connected.
Right now, they do not see any connection from what is happening underground
and what is happening above ground. They will eventually note some changes and
understand a little better.
As these changes are happening to your planet, and she is
coming to the place of understanding who she actually is, you are all yearning
for the same yet not quite knowing how to go about it. So since many people are
seeing these earth events as bad things, perhaps you should all have tantrums.
Perhaps you should all be able to express yourselves the same way the planet is
– volcanically. . . or by shaking things up. Or, we are laughing here for we
can say it can be through verbal abuse which Sue is very good at. (Laughter)
That would be wind, we believe. It does not matter which you choose. It is time
for each of you to find a way to express self differently than the way you have
been expressing self for you have not! You have been expressing self only
through the eyes of others and you have lost sight of who you are. Think on
that for a moment, children, because it changes the way you see things when you
recognize that as truth. It does not mean it is the only truth. It does not
mean it is the only way to view things. It simply is a way to view things so
that you can go beyond what has been holding you back and do something
different.
We would like in the meditation tonight, should you choose
to join us in doing that, to express to you a way to be opening your hearts, to
be discovering self, to be connecting on every level possible so that the four
steps we mentioned in the very beginning will be easier for each of you to
understand.
We will say that it is the love, and your lack of
understanding of that word that you throw about on your planet so easily, it is
the lack of understanding of what love truly means for it must come from self.
If it does not relate and understand self, how can it come from self? You will
learn that that is not possible.
It is time, children, that you accepted the fact that you
are loved. We don’t care who you are. We do not care how long you have been
here. We do not care if you do not understand. The love is always there. It is
up to you to accept or reject. It always is. The energy that is always around
you at any given time. It is up to you to accept or reject. It always is. So
why is it the person knows not to get on the airplane before it crashes and
another person does not? Why is it that when you are driving on your streets in
weather such as you have now (snow, cold, ice) one person gets into an accident
but someone else in the same spot does not. This energy, this information is
always around you. It is up to you to determine whether you are willing to let
it into your inner self, your core self, the self that we are talking about reinforcing
and assisting you in making stronger so that it will be easier for you to
understand who the self is that we see when we look at each of you. It is not
the same as you see when you look in your reflective surfaces, it is different.
It is an energy and a light that we see. It is a combination of things that
make up in totality all that you are. And you are not just this physical, 3D
being. You have layer upon layer upon layer that have nothing to do with this
particular dimension. But that is a little more complex to be speaking of this
evening. We will tease you to a place of comfort first, before we confuse you.
Do you have questions on what we are speaking of at this
time? (Silence) Do not all speak at once. If you have nothing to ask of us on that
level, do you wish to get into your question and answer part now or would you
prefer to do your meditation first? We do not care. But we are often accused,
and often accused by you, Kris, (laughter) that once the meditation is
completed, you are somewhat brain dead. (More laughter)
Kris: It happens!
So rather than being accused, we are offering choice.
Response: Mumblings about voting for the meditation, and
agreement to that.
Kris: Okay. You’ve been warned.
There is always time for questions, even with the clock
watcher beside us.
Kris: It’s not about the time, it’s about that fact that we
go (not heard).
So we will say to you to find your comfortable positions.
What we wish to do with you this evening is connect you to your core self, your
self that is, indeed, both earth and universally connected. In doing this, we
will also be opening your heart centers.
MEDITATION
Find your comfortable positions.
Breathe in. Breathe in light. Allow the light to fill your
body. And as you breathe in light, relax. Relax your physicality. As you
breathe in light, when you exhale, release all things that block the light.
Breathe in. And breathe out. And allow your physical body now to relax.
We wish to work with you in connecting you to your core
self. We wish to work with you in connecting you to your planetary, third
dimensional self. And in doing this, to make you more aware of your totality.
With your next breath in, breathe in from the center of the
planet. Breathe in from the center of the planet, up into your body, into your
feet, your legs, your torso, and settle the breath in your heart center. Feel
your connectedness of breath from the heart of the planet to the heart of your
body.
Now breathe in from the heart of the universe. Breathe into
the top of your head down. Bring this breath to your heart cavity and let it
rest there. Feel your heart cavity expand. Feel the energy of the heart of the
universe and the heart of the planet now dwelling in your heart cavity. Feel
that section of your body expand energetically.
Now breathe in through the front of your heart cavity,
breathe in your connectedness to all things. And when you are ready, breathe
out through the back of your heart cavity those things you wish to release.
You are connected to earth and universe. You are connected
to heart, to heart, to heart, of all living things upon your planet and more.
We ask you to see in front of you, here in the middle of the
room, a column of light. Imagine that this light is your core self. This light
is in each and every one of you. It pulses. It moves in a similar way with your
DNA. It shows you light and sound and color and movement.
As you watch this light, as you see the movement of this
light when you are ready you’re going to step into the center of the column.
When you step into the center of the column, you’re going to feel yourself
coming together – earth to universe, heart to heart. Feel yourself connecting
to all things. Feel your placement within the universe. Feel your placement
within the planet. Feel.
As this energy spins around you, as this energy moves around
you, you become it and it becomes you. Now you are the column. The column is
you. You are light and you are sound and vibration and feeling.
Breathe (toned). Feel (toned). Allow (toned).
Allow now the energy in your heart center. See it as a
different color. See it as a different movement. See it as a different light.
It is all things and all things is what it is which is light and sound and
color. It is wave upon wave. It is vibration. You are wave upon wave and
vibration.
We ask now that you find a memory, a memory from your early
years of being held, being soothed, being loved. This memory is unconditional
in its love for you. This is for you. Unconditional love no matter who you are,
no matter what you have done. Allow yourself to feel this feeling of
unconditional love. Of being held. Of being wanted. Of being desired. And allow
the memory of the energy of the feeling to go into your heart center. Open your
heart center for this memory and this feeling. And when you allow this memory
to be planted in your heart center, watch as it now grows. Love. Desire.
Acceptance. It grows from head to toe and toe to head. It is your energy. It is
energy of complete acceptance.
Bring your thoughts back now, bring them back to the room
you are in. Hold on to the feeling of being held. Hold on to the feeling of
being desired. Hold on to the feeling of being wanted. And with that feeling in
the room that you are now in, with that feeling held close to your heart, allow
yourself to create a door in your heart cavity. A door that you allow yourself
to open to receive from others. A door that is triggered by kindness and love.
A door that is triggered by feeling. Release the fear that says you will be
hurt. Release the fear that says you cannot trust. And in your door allow
yourself the power to know the difference between manipulation and adoration;
between fear and love; between want and desire; between self centeredness and
self care. Know that you are in control of this door, but it is time now to be
receiving.
Again, the door will always open to love.
Breathe now up from the center of the planet, up through
your spine and exhale at the top of your crown. Breathe now from the center of
the universe into your crown send the earth back this breath through your feet.
Breathe now the energy of the universe into your heart and send love back
through yourself out the back to the rest of the universe. Watch as it recycles
and comes back to you, to your door that is open to love. Feel yourself accept.
Feel yourself being held once again. Feel yourself being adored and loved.
Come back now. Come back into your physicality. Enter back
into your body in a more conscious way. Steady your breathing to bring yourself
back to your here and your now to this room and this time knowing you have been
given not just a tool, but rather an opportunity to allow. Should you need to
feel loved, adored and wanted, we will say simply to open your door and ask. It
does not matter if you are alone or with others. Simply open this door and ask.
As you bring yourself back to this time and this now, make
yourself aware of your physicality in the chair where you are sitting. Breathe
into your body. Move your body. When you have all returned, we also will come
and speak with you more.
END MEDITATION
Not too shabby, huh? (Laughter)
Has everyone returned?
R: Yes.
Do you have questions on what we have done? (Silence) You
will.
Kris, we will ask of you, is there a way you can share with
everyone in this room that particular meditation? We fear they may need to do
this more than once before it takes.
K: I can send a link.
That would be good. We would recommend, since we saw some
resistance, that this would be a good thing to do more than once for each of
you. We do not care if you do it. We just wish to offer you the opportunity to
do it. Do you have questions on why we did what we did, or any questions on
your meditation before we go into your questions?
R: I couldn’t find one.
Could not find one what?
R: A memory.
Is that not fascinating. We would say to you, then make one
up. (Laughter)
R: I did, thank you.
It does not matter if it is real or not. What matters is
that you find a way to get yourself to the feeling level that we speak of.
Since you have made one up already, we trust it was a good one. Is there
anything else?
Are your brains back enough now to be asking your questions?
You have said yes, so that means you must have a question to
ask.
Q: I have a couple questions.
We might have a couple answers.
Q: One question is, is there significance to the colors that
I see when I’m doing the meditation or when I’m doing my work? If there is, how
do I discover what that is, how do I know what the significance is to the
colors that I see?
We have a smart answer Sue does not want us to use.
(Laughter) We will say to you, that how can there not be significance because
they are your colors? They affect you on an emotional as well as a visual level
when you see them. To ask what someone else might think they mean would be
silly, for they would not mean the same to the other person as they would mean
to you. We say this because you have a tendency to ask for validation in what
you already know within your heart is correct for you. We are not the ones to
give you that validation because that must come from self. We would say,
instead, to name these colors for they are not what you would call
"normal" colors. We would say to you to name these colors for yourself
and determine how you feel when you are around those colors. Then you will have
all the answers you could need. You already have them, you are just afraid to
accept them. Do you understand?
R: I do.
Then this is good. And the other questions are?
Q: The other question is about writing, about my writing.
Yes you can! (Laughter!)
Q: Thank you. It’s been my experience that I write better
when I have to.
Actually when you are in pain, you write better. For
whatever reason, your mind says it must be released in some way, and your
writing assists you in your pain. Would it not be nice if you could also write
the same when you were in joy?
R: It would be fantastic.
Then perhaps it comes down to re-training yourself into
understanding that we need to express joy as much as we need to express pain.
For some reason, you are fearful to express your joy – what if you are
incorrect? What if someone should come along and take that from you now that
you have expressed it? Yet you know that is not necessary, nor needful, nor
going to actually happen, it’s just simply a fear that you have. We would say,
since you like to challenge yourself, – you do it all the time but not always
in a positive way – we will say to you why not challenge yourself so that every
time you write from your place of pain, you must also write from a place of
joy. If you do not have a memory, then make one up, for you all seem to be good
at that. Write about your joy as often as you write about your pain. Then you
will see how they can start coming together and be more "real" all
the way around. We are not one thing or the other, nor are you one thing or the
other. You are multiple things. You are not just pain or happy but all things
between. You will not express that in ways of your writing until you can accept
that in ways though your heart. Does that make sense to you?
R: Yes.
Then this is also good. Do you have more?
R: Not right now.
She says that but doesn’t quite mean it.
R: I haven’t formulated how I’m going to say what I want to
say.
We can wait. Are there others while we are waiting?
Q: Why am I supposed to be here tonight?
You have a tendency to doubt what you know, deep within
self. You search outside of self for that validation we spoke of earlier. You
have not yet seen your power. You have not yet accepted your healing abilities
have nothing to do with your training. You have not yet allowed yourself to
recognize how you have healed others in the past that had nothing to do with
your
medical training but by the way you spoke, by the compassion
you offered, by the heart understanding you put out. Since it is now time for
you to be receiving the same, it would be nice if you knew that, also. So we
are simply a reminder to you in the door we have given you – speaking of
resistance – that it is time for you to expect to be receiving at least as much
as you have given. You do not expect it. You are thankful for even the small
things that you receive which is not bad. At the same time, it keeps you, we
will say, begging for more. Even though that is not a conscious thing, the
begging part we are speaking of is the need for your soul to be fulfilled. That
is a word we truly like.
Fulfilled is one of those words that is not often used in
your language. Sue discovered it a while ago and started using it (this is an
odd statement to me – the use of the word "discover") and we have an
image of what that means. When you are fulfilled, what you are is brighter than
at any other time. When you are fulfilled, what you are is able to project your
energy farther than at any other time. We find the use of the word with the
concept of the energy a lovely combination to be teaching those in your species
to better understand and utilize.
You need to now ask yourself, what it is that will fulfill
you rather than what it is you must do to help others be fulfilled or to
survive. If you will shift your thinking from outside to inside – this actually
holds true to all – to shift your thinking from outside of self to inside of
self what happens is that all things outside of self shift, too. Those that you
have been struggling to assist will suddenly be in better places. It may not be
the place you want them to be but that isn’t necessarily your choice. So once
you shift your perspective inward, once you start seeing your capabilities and
not just your abilities according to what is on a piece of paper (resume), or
what others have told you, then you will truly understand the healing powers
that you have to offer.
We do not know if you are here to hear that or not, but we
kind of like it! (Laughter)
R: I am here to hear that.
Do you understand what we say to you?
R: Yes, I understand.
Do you have questions on that?
R: Oh, probably lots, but I wouldn’t want to take up
everyone’s time.
Then what we will say is that is an outside thing and not an
inside thing.
Kris: Start receiving. Ask you questions!
Q: I have another question, first, that’s on my mind, that
doesn’t have to do with what we were just talking about, I don’t think.
It is all related.
Q: Why did Shea (spelling?) come into my son’s life?
For the same reason you came here tonight. We learn with
mirrors. We learn from what we allow ourselves to be reflected back with. So
you come here to see pieces of self. Shea appears so your son can see pieces of
self in ways that he cannot see in the old environment. Do you understand?
R: I understand but it doesn’t makes sense. Shea is dying.
That does not matter for what is being reflected back has
nothing to do with life and death. What is being reflected back has to do with
the energetic side of living. Do you understand that?
R: Yes.
You hesitate.
R: Because I’m crying.
That is acceptable. We must point out to you that living is
not something everyone understands. We find it fascinating. You have physical
shells that you work with quite diligently to keep going no matter what. Yet,
we see a difference in personality in those who understand the difference
between living and just surviving. This is about living. You will see more of
this in different ways as the time in some people’s perspective dwindles and
other people’s, expand.
We will say to you if you will stay in your heart through
this process you will see it much more clearly. If you try to protect, change,
shift, move outside of self for the sake of your son, you will not understand
what is actually happening and you will not be doing your son a favor. Does
that also make sense?
R: I’m not sure.
We will let you read it again in your scientific mind and
see what you make of it when you can read the words.
R: Thank you.
You are welcome, but you are not sure you mean thank you
(Laugh) Is there more?
R: Not right now.
(Silence) Were we too mean, and no one else wishes to speak
with us?
R: NO.
Q: I have a question but I don’t really know how to put it
into words. I’m in a position now of owning 2 houses and a husband just
diagnosed with metastatic cancer. I’m wondering what am I supposed to learn
from this and what steps am I supposed to take other than finding my own heart?
We love when you answer your own question (laughter). You
are correct. It is to find your own heart, first. It is to recognize that
choices have been made outside of you that have little or nothing to do with
you. Yet, at the same time, there is that part of you that always could kiss it
and make it better. It no longer operates on that level. We will say to you,
for you to find your center. In your center, listen to the words we use
previous about the concept of living and to recognize the joy that is always available.
What we see when we look at your species, in general, is your fears and not
your joys. We are asking that you learn to see your joys, first.
The joy that will come from this, will be the joy of
understanding all that you have gained. The joy that will come from this will
be the understanding of all that you have given and received in this particular
lifetime, instead of dwelling on the when and why and how come and why me. If
you dwell in that area, you are dwelling outside of self and not within self.
If you choose to live and dwell within the heart, you will be amazed at how
differently things will look to you, for it will not seem as doom and gloom as
it does now. Although your words can be "oh no, I understand", your
feelings are still quite, we will say, tender. You must release those feelings
for there is anger connected here. It is perfectly normal for you to be angry.
Express your anger. Allow the anger to be. . . let it fly free. In allowing it
to leave you, you will have the room for the joy. Do you understand?
R: Yes.
Then this is good. We will ask, when Sue transcribes (and we
know how much she loves to do that!), to make sure you carefully read what we
have offered to you. You will receive the information on different levels at a
different time. Is there more?
Q: How do I find a home, but not a structure to live in, my
place where I’m supposed to be and who I’m supposed to be with?
You start with heart. If you are not content within the
heart of self, please go back to the beginning when we spoke to you about the
various selves that need to be understood. If you are not content with that
self, there is no home for you. Your home, in essence, for each and every one
of you is the universe. Your home is the energy within your heart center for
your heart center is connected to all your other pieces in ways you cannot
possibly yet comprehend. That comprehension will be coming in other ways.
We will say to you that the structure you are looking for is
. . . We do not mean this to be judgmental, but you have a tendency to ask for
things specifically. You know, if you had "X" then you would be
happy. We are saying, you are often limiting this home you are asking for. When
you use the very term, you have in your mind a mental image of what it should
be. We will say, instead, to find in your heart, the feeling that you are
looking for, to find within your heart center that emotional piece by opening
the door of what it means to have a home. And is not home with those we love?
So discover within self what home means on a feeling level and not on a
structure or non-structure level. Once you define home from feeling, and open
the door to both let it out and in, you will be attracting what you say you
desire. But as long as you believe that it must be a physical space, in
essence, for that is the definition you carry when you think in that way, you
will have great difficulty finding the location. Do you understand us?
R: Yes I do.
Do you have questions on what we have told you?
R: No, I understand.
Is there more?
Q: Actually, I have one more question. I have a feeling I’m
supposed to do something with my hands. And it keeps coming back to me.
There is a character Sue has in her head from Pee Wee Herman
(laughter). We believe his name was Jambi or something like that. He had no
hands.
We will say to you, like Jambi, you do not need hands to
heal, but that is the direction you are sending yourself. When you say the
feeling is that there is something to do with your hands, we will ask you to
work with the feeling and not the ‘what does’ or ‘could this mean’. Do not
think in terms of Reiki or Reflexology or Polarity or massage – do not think
for those are limited ways of thinking. Think, rather, what can you do each
time you touch....when you reach out to a friend and simply tap their shoulder,
or when a child goes by and you touch them on top of the head, or when someone
comes up to you in grief and you simply hold their hand. Your hands are an
extension of your heart. If you put them straight out to the side, they align
with your heart cavity. Your hands often send out the energy of your heart. If
you can start recognizing what your heart is saying, it will, in turn, lead
your hands to where they need to be. We are saying to you that by listening to
your heart, you will be led in a new direction. Does this make sense?
R: Yes, it makes sense.
Then this is good. Is there more?
R: No, thank you.
Anyone else?
Q: What I was thinking about earlier has been answered by
what you said to others, very nicely. It was to do with my work and finding
that place where it’s easy when we meditate and when we’re here to get in that
place where we’re just here. That’s really all we need to be, just here, with
where our heart is. That’s where I want to be when I’m working. You just gave
me a good reminder about how to get there and that’s the way to go about my
work.
And now the trick, as you would call it, is how do you stay
there? You stay there by recognizing there is no reason to leave. You all leave
that space because you think you must fit somewhere else. Yet, here you are,
all in this room fitting quite nicely. You must come away from, again, that
concept of validation outside of self.
If someone thinks you are crazy, oh well. If someone thinks
there is something wrong with you, oh well. If someone believes that what you
are saying is incorrect or wrong, they have choices to make, also. You would
not feel the same way if you were speaking on some other level that was already
acceptable to the masses such as a religion. You have all been taught that you
must back away from stating anything opposite the religion is stating. Yet, in
your spirituality, you somehow think you must be altering that belief system
within self to fit the outside people. There is no reason to leave your heart
except to make the other person more comfortable. You must stop and ask
yourself, why are they more important than you? Your comfort will assist in
your healing. Your healing will assist in the healing of all.
If you wish peace upon your planet, it must first be found
within self. If you wish abundance upon your planet, it must first be found
within yourself. You do not need to leave that heart space except from your
point of fear. So you may wish to ask yourself, what are you afraid of? If it’s
crazy, we would say, go for it! It is much more fun to be considered crazy
(laughter). Is there more?
Q: I’m thinking about the crazy part. In the meditation, to
open the door to my heart, Daffy Duck jumped out. So, crazy is my thing! (Laughter)
We hope that he can dance with Daisy. It is always much more
fun to be with a partner, is it not? That is the piece it is time for you to be
looking at. We knew you’d like that one!
R: Okay.
We do believe we have tongue tied her, not an easy feat with
her. You understand us.
R: I do.
We will pick on you in that way because you do understand
us.
R: Thank you.
You do not mean that but we will accept it. (Laughter)
Q: I have a general question.
Yes.
Q: There are so few of us that enter into this and really
want to be a part of helping the Earth, support the animals and so forth, when
you look at the population and the fear out there. How do you see hope in that,
that the Earth will survive and the goodness will survive in people’s hearts
when there’s so few?
Perhaps because we see so many and not so few. Perhaps
because we look, and we see into the hearts differently than you see into the
hearts. Perhaps because we have dealt with the Earth for millions of years and
recognize it would take a lot to destroy her. She has great power. For you to
think, because you are living upon her, that you can influence that greatly,
you are not correct. She knows how to save herself. Yet, at the same time, it
is the lessons you all must learn that she is assisting you in learning.
So the hope that you are asking for already exists. The hope
that you are speaking of is already there, in that heart place. If you open
that door that we have assisted in placing there, and ask for the hope to come
in, it will be with you, also. Does that assist you?
R: Yes.
Then this is good. We will say to all of you that there is
no greater power than self. However, that "self’s" power must be
understood. If you do not understand the power that you have within yourself,
then you will not act upon it. So the mother who thinks, ‘I cannot lift a car’
and then the car falls on the child, will be unable to save the child. The
mother who thinks ‘my child is precious’ and then the car falls upon the child
will not hesitate to lift that car. Science can come along and tell you
anything Science chooses to tell you. But we will say it is the opening of the
heart to receive that creates what you term miracles. Is that not something to
think about?
If you are asking for a miracle, you must open that door we
speak of in order to allow it to come in. If you ask for a miracle, we will
also mention to you to not say what shape and form you wish it to take, but
rather, like finding home, to go to the feeling center and allow the miracle to
come to you in that way.
So your miracle can be that "I wish to be happy and
content in my life" and then open the door with the expectation of what
happy and content means and allow the miracle to come to you. A large part of
miracle making is receiving, is it not? It is why many miracles happen
unconsciously for your brains get in the way.
We have comments about your brains but we are being kind!
(Laughter)
R: Oh, don’t hold back.
Perhaps not a good statement to give to us! (LAUGHTER) We
will say if you only choose to work with your heads, then the time in your
history when they were using the guillotine in the other countries perhaps made
more sense to us than to you (Laughter). The only thing however it managed to
convey was that the heart would no longer function without the head. We are
asking you to use both. But the head is an exceptionally stubborn vehicle to
get through. Speak to any scientist and you will discover this. Although even
science is coming around, we will say.
Are there more questions?
Q: I have another question. Speaking of hands, I have a
great desire to put my hands on people in a therapeutic sense.
Sue is laughing.
R: Sue knows why. To me, her legs called to me during one of
our groups and I just needed to go tend to them so I get distracted by that.
Like Shea in the hospital. Even though the mother didn’t know what it was I
wanted to do, she let me do it. I had to do it. I don’t know if it’s self
serving. It calls to me. So my question is, is that something I should be doing?
You talk about the power in healing...
Does it matter if you do something for the good if it is
self serving?
R: I’m not sure I understand that.
You said perhaps you only did what you did because it was
self serving.
R: Well, it’s just that it’s my need. I have to do it.
Was anyone harmed in your need?
R: No.
Then why does it matter? What we will say, again, is if you
are working from the heart it does not matter. If the person on the receiving
end of what it is you term your need to do, does not wish it, they will simply
not take it. For it is not all in your control even though you would like it to
be. So those we try to save and hold onto because we think it is best, if the
person we are holding onto and trying to save does not wish to be saved, they
simply will say ‘sorry, we are not interested in what you have to offer’. The
trick for you will be accepting that – accepting the fact that you can offer,
but they have the choice to say no.
Each and every one of you, within your own power and within
your own right, have the ability to do anything. BUT, the one thing you cannot
do is infringe on the other person if they do not want it. When people say
‘they made me do it’, that is not correct. There was choice involved. Even when
you are working energetically with others it is their choice to accept or
reject the energy that you are offering. If it is your need to offer the
energy, why not do it? It harms none. And at some point, through your desire,
we would hope it would help one. If it does not help the one you are working on
helping, it is still positive energy that has been released into the energetic
atmosphere and becomes part of the field. As part of the field, this energy can
then be used by others with the open door in their hearts to let it in.
Never is it a bad thing to send energy in a positive way
with the intention of healing and good health. But it must be sent in a
positive way, and not in a dictatorial ‘this will do this because I am doing
that’. That is too much of your allopathic medicine and not enough of the
spirituality that comes from the actual healer, which all of you are.
All of you have played the ‘kiss it make it better’ role in
one way or another which makes all of you healers. It just depends on what
level you believe you can heal. Jailene does it with great, large horses.
Others might do it with tiny children, even grandchildren. But the bottom line
is that all of you heal. Does that answer the question that you never really
asked? (Laughter)
R: Yes.
Then this is good.
Q: There’s so much. But maybe I’ve come to a place in my
life where I already know the answer to the question and it would just be
validation. I don’t want to come across leading myself as aren’t you smart, and
haven’t you come a long way when I’m no where near there.
But aren’t you smart? And haven’t you come a long way?
Q: For the first time tonight, I have a very hard time with
meditation, I have a very hard time calming enough to receive, and tonight was
just so calming. The memory is so real. And because it’s so real and so
comforting, it would always bring me to tears because it’s gone, and who gave
me that memory. For the first time tonight, (can’t hear)
Then we would say it has been a success. We would also say,
even though you have not asked directly the question as others have done this
evening, we will also say to you when you made your comment about having tools
and props, what you are forgetting is how much power we put into our tools and
props that make up who we are as individuals on many an occasion. So the woman
who puts on the right outfit suddenly feels pretty even though she may not
really feel pretty. So the purpose of your tools and props are to get you into
that emotional place, to use the power of that emotion to create what it is you
say you wish to create. Do you understand?
R: I do.
So if you will hold on to that information you will find
there need not be pain with any memory except the pain we choose to put into
it.
R: Thank you.
You are welcome. Is there any more before Kris gets out the
whip?
Kris: There’s power in that outfit, too! (Laughter)
(Lot’s of talk, laughing and mumblings)
What we will say since Kris has politely requested a
wrap-up, is that we will ask you now to go back to the first 4 statements that
we made in regard to self. Understand that each and every one of you in a
position of being who you are need to understand self first before all other
things can flow into place. On that note, we have Gaia here, waiting to come
through, but first we would like to say to each and every one of you since Kris
has volunteered to send you a link to this particular meditation, we suggest
that you use it again. We suggest that you use it until you no longer need to
use it because the feeling can be called up in you quickly and easily simply by
breathing. We suggest that you use it so that you can get in touch once again
with the feelings that you have chosen to put aside because it was not
appropriate, or you did not fit, or you did not feel comfortable. We give you this
with a hope that you will continue to walk the path you have chosen which is
the path of light. Each time you take a step, it is like turning on a light
somewhere else. When you asked about hope, that is how hope is spread. Each of
you gets to turn the light on, not necessarily turn the light out. It does not
matter how others choose to view you. What matters is how you choose to view
self. It is the self we started with, and it is the self we will end with which
is why Gaia feels a need to speak with you, also.
If there are no more questions for us, we will leave you for
now. Anything before we go? (Met with quiet) We will leave you.
R: Thank you
NEW CHANNEL – GAIA
There is pain here tonight. I am concerned that when you
allow the essence of the pain to be greater than the essence of the love, then
your concentration cannot shift toward what it is you say you desire. As women,
it is important to recognize the power that women have. As women, it is
important to see how you, I will say how you convey the information to others.
For too many years, it has been conveyed through apology. For too many years,
it has been conveyed through subservience. And even though in modern times,
woman has learned to be more forceful, more direct, more understanding of her
own power, there is, I will call it a line of training that has been a part of
you that is difficult sometimes to break. I could tell you the chronology of
when things happened, but that is not the point. The point is to understand
your own chronology of when you allow your power to come through and when you
must, for whatever reason, back away from your power. The sad part is it
usually comes through only in defense of another and not in defense of self. So
I will ask all of you to take a moment tonight before you tuck yourselves in
and allow yourself to feel your pain. It is real. It is a part of you. But in
feeling it this time, allow yourself to feel it for the last time. Recognize
that in accepting the pain that is there, there is no need, now that you know,
now that you understand, now that you recognize, there is no need to keep it
forever. There is no need to allow it to rule you. Rather, recognize that
through love, through your heart, through your understanding of love of self,
that that is what will bring you to where you desire and where you truly wish
to be.
Children, it is so important that each of you, each of you
go deep into yourselves, deep into your cells, the very make up of your bodies,
go into them and recognize that each and every one has had a different
experience. Each and every one still works together to function, to assist you,
to lead you in new and different directions and hopefully on your path of
power. Go into your cells, and recognize because of this, that you can re-train,
re-group, and turn them all to a position that will make you joyful in the
choices that you make.
There is so much joy in the world but it is difficult
sometimes to get to because there are so many people clamoring in your head. It
is difficult sometimes to get to because you are in a place of being stuck in
your pain. I am not saying there is no pain in the world. It is a great piece
of suffering right now. Yet, at the same time, it is changing. It is changing
because each person is changing. That is, indeed, what true power is. . . not
from the group, not from the community and not from the country but from the
individual heart. Once one heart changes, just one, all others can then begin
to follow.
Look at the leaders who have chosen their heart. Look at
Mother Theresa. Look at Gandhi. Look at those who have come before, who have
offered their hearts, some of them better than others. Some of them with, we
will call agendas because they want others to act as they act. And others who
can recognize that just by being who they are, all things will change.
So I will say to each of you, when you allow your pain to be
released, and no longer feel the need to identify with it, to see yourself as
woman and pain as one, then you will be truly on a new path and oh, what a
lovely path this will be for each of you. It will light below you, before you
and behind you as you walk it. It will be the light of you going in every
direction, recognizing every piece of your strength, seeing within the
abilities of compassion, the abilities of passion, and how to use each and
every cell, to come together to create the peace that you say you desire. You
have that power as women. You have that power as an individual.
Do you have any questions for me? (Silence)
I hear so much and yet you say so little.
R: I found it very helpful to hear you tonight and hope that
you can come through again.
It is not a matter of needing my voice. It is a matter of
you looking in the mirror and seeing me there, for I live in you. I live in each
of you. I live in your heart. I am always there to hold you, to guide you if
you ask for assistance. So the next time you look, perhaps you will see me
looking back.
R: Thank you.
You are most welcome. Is there any more?
Thank you. I thank you. Your hearts were open enough to
allow me to come in and speak. I also thank you for recognizing that this light
that you have chosen to follow is yours and yours alone. Please remember you
are never on this path alone. If you want me or need me for any reason, I walk
beside you. Good night.
Thank you’s all around.